Do you mean to kill me slowly?
Breath by breath
Smothering me with every withheld word
Every silent occasion
Your absence screams
What you won’t say
Do you want to break me,
Utterly destroy me?
Do you even realize
Your words unspoken
Choked down and swallowed
Suck the air from the world?
Suffocating, desperate for relief
Sliding, grasping at anything
To assuage the pain that unexpectedly leaps
Into my consciousness
Pain that lies dull and dormant
Until the stillness arrives
Do you want to empty me?
Hollow me
Till I blow away in the wind?
Or turn me to vacant stone?
My slow transformation
Unexplained
In the darkness, I will the coldness to take over
Till I’m the tomb and not the body
—Christina Knowles (2015)
Leave a Reply